Can you here something ticking? I do. It feels like a time bomb has been set under your bed! And the funny thing is-you know the zero hour! I mean the exact time after which there will be nothing like this. Just a big BOOM and everything, as we know it, is gone!
Now here I am again. Complaining about my self. Complaining about my failures and my successes!! Though I don't know exactly whom I am complaining to. But I am complaining about everything. Everything that i am. Everything that I could be.
So lets try to find out why.
Is there any reason?
-ya.
what?
-I cannot control my self
why you cannot?
-hmm, may be I am afraid of me!
why? whats wrong with you?
-I guess everything. Everything is wrong about me. I have this problem of inertia. I am very much prone to habits. I get an inertia in about almost everything. And when I Look at the one way tunnel. I feel like a moron. I know that its a way of no return. Then again, I think that 'why don't stay calm a bit more?'. I know how it feels to be in that thing. I have past one already!! Its kind of a pain.
Actually its kind of a roller coaster. You know that once you strap yourself to the coaster there is no return. You have to climb up to the top. And then...
You fall. You fall so hard that you cannot even think of anything. But when the coaster slowly climbs up to the top, you might feel that, 'Why The hell did I get on this machine of doom!'. But alas, there is no return!
I feel exactly the same. With some more twist on it.
